College

I'm not going to a real college, like Iowa State University. I'm going to study online. The school I'm going to study online from is called TecMilenio. Its campus is in Mexico in a big city called Monterrey. The reason I'm going is because I can't pay for a real college. One year at Iowa State costs about 15,000 U.S. Dollars; One year at TecMilenio costs about 18,000 U.S. Dollars. I'll be able to finish in three years with a degree in Marketing and Advertising.

It kinda, really, absolutely sucks that I cannot attend a University. I've grown up around a bunch of kids that know they HAVE to go to college because their parents went to college. My parents didn't. My mom didn't even finish high school, my dad dropped out of college after one year.

I've watched soooooo many movies, and I've seen a lot of movies about college and how fun it's supposed to be and how the students get to have roommates and how you get to live on your own pretty much. The students are away from their parents and their siblings. All of that I will not get.

I've heard that college is the best four years of your life. High school was great, but college is better. I'm going to watch all my friends, my best friends and my girlfriend go to college and have fun, while I stay at home with my parents, rooming with my brother and not going to college parties and not seeing my girlfriend every day, and not hanging out with my best friends and not getting the college experience. It saddens me.

Why me?

I mean, what does God want out of me from this. Is my life supposed to suck this badly so that *if* i make it through this jungle i call my "college years", my life will be better...no, amazing? ...I just hope so.

I hope that after three years of reading a bunch of Spanish and studying online from my Macbook Pro (that i got for college, and was actually a compensation for not going to real college) that I can use my degree to get a job and I can live with my girlfriend in an apartment in downtown Des Moines or something. I just want to be with her.